Monday, 30 June 2008

My girls! Oh and my boy!

Well Katherine went to college for the day today. She had a really good time and was with a couple of friends that she knows and also made a new friend! She has to go back tomorrow for the performing arts course and has to do a 3 minute presentation on something but for hers she's going to sing. She's looking forward to it!

Isobel went into school for an hour this afternoon. She met her new class teacher and spent some time in the classroom. She came out with a bag with some bits and pieces in, scissors, glue, paper etc. I got her some bits of uniform from the second hand box and she ended up putting one of the dresses on while we were still there - she looked so cute!

When Matthew got in from school this afternoon I caught him upstairs ironing his t-shirt!!! Yes ironing!! I said why are you ironing are you going out somewhere.... he gave me an embarrassed smile and said yes, I said are you going out with Jessica and he grinned again and said yes!

He finally plucked up the courage to ask her out on Saturday night and this was the first time he'd seen her since. They went a walk along the canal and apparently they held hands for a while, awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. My little boy is growing up!

Her Mum is one of my best friends so that's even better!!

Sarah x

Saturday, 28 June 2008

More singing!!

We went to St Peter's Church summer fair today. It was sooo much better than last year as it chucked it down all day last time and although the weather wasn't the best, it was quite windy, at least it stayed fine!

Katherine was accompanied by Mark on guitar for two songs, she sang a song she'd written herself which is excellent and it was the first time she'd performed it and 'Heaven' which is a Bryan Adams song and then she sang 'There are worse things' from Grease and 'Penny to my name' to a backing track.

We had a nice couple of hours and the church gave us £20 for Christopher's Fund to say thanks. I felt a bit sorry for Kate though as she thought it was for her for a start :o(

Then in the evening she had a recital at a local high school. It was put on by the dance school that she goes to and there was lots of singing and dancing and my friend's daughter Erica was there doing a drama sketch!!

Katherine sang 'Everything I do' and blew everyone away! I have to say though she really did herself proud considering the busy weekend she'd had!

Sarah x

Friday, 27 June 2008

Grease is the word!

Katherine was asked to sing two songs at a fund raising evening to help raise money for Charlotte's Smiles. The charity was created in memory of 6 year old Charlotte Coates who died from cancer in December 2006. The charity pays for children with cancer to have days out and parties.

The evening was brilliant! Lots of people wore fancy dress. Katherine dressed up and looked amazing. She sang Hopelessly devoted and There are worse things. I'll put them on You Tube and put a link up when I get chance.

16 of us went and had the best time. There was so much going on! Dancers, singers, there was a roundabout outside for the kids. There was a raffle and an auction too and they managed to raise just over £2,500!!

Isobel danced so much. She really loved it. Matthew asked his 'friend' to go out with him too and she said yes so he's well chuffed lol!

Sarah x

Thursday, 26 June 2008

School presentation

We went to an awards evening at JCC tonight.

Katherine was presented with a book as a thank you for services to the school - she was President of the school council. She had an A level psychology book and to her surprise she received £35 worth of book tokens from the Rotary club for services in the community too! They'll come in very handy when she's buying books for college.

It was a long seremony but the highlight was the traditional songs perfromed by the Kenyan students.

It's very sad to know that some children don't even have clothes to wear. It's inspired me to look into sponsoring a child. It's only £50 a year and it could make such a massive difference to a Kenyan child who in turn could make a huge difference to their community and improve life for 100's of people just by having the opportunity of an education.

Sarah x

The power of prayer?

Well something has changed for sure!

I went to work yesterday but came home an hour early as I wasn't feeling great, my tummy had been unsettled since the night before. When I got back Andy was painting in the back room!

After a while I said I felt that something had changed, I couldn't explain what but I just felt something was different and to my amazement he said that he felt it too! I said I felt like he/we were going to be ok and he said he agreed and he felt so much better and calmer.

We had a nice tea together and later on I went to my church cell group and I must admit I prayed on the way home that everything would be ok and it was!

We discussed it again last night that we knew something was different and he said he's feeling so much better and more positive. I asked him if he thought it was the fact that everyone I could think of was praying for us and he said he didn't know but it certainly was a strange coincidence - or as we Christian's like to say a 'Godincidence'.

I really hope this is the beginning of better times for us all.

Sarah x

Tuesday, 24 June 2008

Another difficult day

Mum had the children so that me and Andy could have some time together after yesterdays proceedings.

We decided to go to the Marina for tea. I know it was extravagent as we'd eaten out the night before but we just needed some time out.

We had two meals for £9 so it wasn't bad at all. We didn't have a pudding either which is a first! I went into the new hotel and picked up an application form as they need staff. It would be really handy for me working there as I can walk there and back and that's a big consideration now diesel is so expensive!

We had a really lovely couple of hours and later on the kids came home and Katherine and Matthew went back out again to youth cell and band practise. We put Isobel to bed and then things all went wrong again.

Andy ended up going out for a walk around the canal and I went upstairs and sreamed and cried into my pillow.

I was soooo frustrated - I just can't live like this anymore. I cried and was so angry.

Later on for some strange reason - around 9.30pm I started to paint the bathroom! I don't know if it was therapy or what it was but I felt really manic.

I finished painting and was just about to ask one of the kids (who by this time were home again) to come with me to try and find Andy and he was home!

I told him that I felt crap and maybe I should leave. I seemed to constantly fail at trying to make him happy and felt that they'd all be better off without me. We had a really good talk and sorted things out (again) and went to bed. I felt really sick all night. I don't know if it was the chicken tikka I'd had at the Marina.

During the day in desparation I sent out an urgent prayer request for Andy as I'd text him in the morning and he said he was feeling crap and really emotional.

Sarah x

Monday, 23 June 2008

Remembering Christopher

Today was a very sad day. It was 6 years today since Christopher died. I didn't feel too bad in the morning and while I was out at swimming lessons with Isobel I had a text from work asking if I could go in as they were desparately short of staff in the cafe.

I went in and did just over 3 hours work. It was very hard work but I really enjoyed it. They really wouldn't have managed without me!

When I left work I bought some flowers and picked the girls up and went to the cemetary.

In the afternoon I must admit I had a bit of a dose on the sofa. We planned to go out for a meal as we do that every year on his birthday and anniversary.

Well all hell broke lose with Andy. I cried more than I've cried in months and months. I won't go into detail but it was awful. He said he wasn't going to come out with us.

To cut a long story short, he eventually did come out with us and we had a nice family meal at the Milestone and we raised our glasses in Christopher's memory.

When we got home we watched a dvd with the kids and things were still a bit strained. I got very upset again when we went to bed but we managed to sort things out eventually.

I'm finding this all very hard and I've just about had enough.

Sarah x