After quite a good week the last couple of days have been a disappointment for us both. He's been feeling really stressed and doesn't really know why. I've told him that it's very early days and he's bound to have some bad days.
It was the official opening of our new church today and it was a brilliant service. We saw our previous vicar and his family and we couldn't believe how much the kids had grown!
I managed to get the day off work and Katherine sang at the front which was lovely.
Andy enjoyed it but was visibly stressed and not himself at all. I had to try and stay close to him the whole time.
He's just taken the kids out to a gig but I bet he won't stay out long.
I've just washed up and tidied the kitchen and am about to watch the final of Britain's Got Talent. I was pleased that Jodie won the final of Nancy!!
Sarah x
Saturday 31 May 2008
Dummies....
Well she tried very hard the first night but couldn't quite manage it. She kept getting upset and in the end I said it was up to her and she didn't have to be upset so she said she'd have it and try again the next night.
The next night was better, no tears and although she got up a couple of times and took a while to settle she went to sleep without her dummy!!
The third night was a bit of a disappointment as although she didn't ask for her dummy and we settled her down without it she got up and got it and was fast asleep with it in when we checked on her.
Today she's had a busy day and was very tired so I just gave it to her as she was having trouble settling.
We'll see how it goes.
Sarah x
The next night was better, no tears and although she got up a couple of times and took a while to settle she went to sleep without her dummy!!
The third night was a bit of a disappointment as although she didn't ask for her dummy and we settled her down without it she got up and got it and was fast asleep with it in when we checked on her.
Today she's had a busy day and was very tired so I just gave it to her as she was having trouble settling.
We'll see how it goes.
Sarah x
Thursday 29 May 2008
Trying to give up dummies....
Well we had this idea that it was time Isobel gave up her dummies. She starts school in September and although I'm not really too fussed as Katherine was at school and still had a dummy, she used to leave it in her bed for night time lol!
I got her an Argos catalogue to look through and to choose something that she'd like in place of her dummies. Her first choice was a raised wooden playhouse that was fabulous but £329!!
In the end she settled for a battery powered motorbike at £39.99. So we went to bed last night and had a story about a little rat who struggled to give up his dummy but when he had slept 4 nights without it he got his new toy!
She tried really hard, we had lots of tears and I told her it was up to her, she said she wanted her dummy and the new toy but I said she couldn't. She tried so hard to be brave but she couldn't do it so we said we'd try again tonight.
Well today she's seen something she'd like more than a motorbike and it's a wooden rocking rabbit for £20! It's getting cheaper all the time!
She's collected her dummies up and given them to me so we'll see what tonight brings!
Sarah x
I got her an Argos catalogue to look through and to choose something that she'd like in place of her dummies. Her first choice was a raised wooden playhouse that was fabulous but £329!!
In the end she settled for a battery powered motorbike at £39.99. So we went to bed last night and had a story about a little rat who struggled to give up his dummy but when he had slept 4 nights without it he got his new toy!
She tried really hard, we had lots of tears and I told her it was up to her, she said she wanted her dummy and the new toy but I said she couldn't. She tried so hard to be brave but she couldn't do it so we said we'd try again tonight.
Well today she's seen something she'd like more than a motorbike and it's a wooden rocking rabbit for £20! It's getting cheaper all the time!
She's collected her dummies up and given them to me so we'll see what tonight brings!
Sarah x
Tuesday 27 May 2008
In love!
Last week Andy brought me flowers when he came in from work. One thing that has come from all these problems is that he is really in love with me and realises what a lovely family we have.
Because he's so attentive and affectionate with me it's making me fall head over heels in love with him all over again.
It's really great. I love the way he is with me, he loves me so much. We sit together on the sofa, we text when we are apart and as for the physical side of things............. well that's our business ;oP
He's quite possessive at the moment but that's understandable. I'm just trying to consider his feelings more while he's feeling so delicate.
The kids are being great too. They have been really good and are helping out around the house a little bit (not a lot just a little) in an attempt to take the pressure off us.
Sarah x
Because he's so attentive and affectionate with me it's making me fall head over heels in love with him all over again.
It's really great. I love the way he is with me, he loves me so much. We sit together on the sofa, we text when we are apart and as for the physical side of things............. well that's our business ;oP
He's quite possessive at the moment but that's understandable. I'm just trying to consider his feelings more while he's feeling so delicate.
The kids are being great too. They have been really good and are helping out around the house a little bit (not a lot just a little) in an attempt to take the pressure off us.
Sarah x
Thursday 22 May 2008
Andy went back to the dentist
He had a follow up appointment at the dentist about the problems with his mouth and the dentist has decided to refer him to the hospital for a second opinion. He said he wasn't too worried but he thought it was best to check. He thought it might be linked to problems with his tummy.
He also went to the docs and she said that the dose of tablets he was on was very low so she's doubled them so we'll see how things go.
Sarah x
He also went to the docs and she said that the dose of tablets he was on was very low so she's doubled them so we'll see how things go.
Sarah x
Sunday 18 May 2008
X-Factor audition
Well off we went to Aston Villa Football ground just after 7am. The queues were enormous! It was a nightmare to park. I parked on the pavement in the end.
We queued for around 2 hours before we actually got into the ground and then it took another 2 hours to get into the stadium and then we waited around 5 hours until Katherine finally got her audition!
It was a good day though, the atmosphere was great and we met Dermot O'Leary! He was great, he said hi to us and rubbed Katherine on the back and said 'Hi how are you'!! Got some really good pics of him, he's a really friendly lovely guy.
Sadly Katherine didn't get through but she wasn't too worried this year. Just after her audition a girl was having her audition and she was absolutely amazing, her voice turned heads, she had a really powerful voice and sang beautifully but to our amazement she didn't get through either! That made Katherine feel a lot better.
It seemed that the early part of the day they were putting lots of people through but it got less and less as the day went on.
I think the secret is getting there as early as possible. Some people had been there since 6am!
We were out of home for around 11 hours and we were shattered when we arrived home.
Sarah x
We queued for around 2 hours before we actually got into the ground and then it took another 2 hours to get into the stadium and then we waited around 5 hours until Katherine finally got her audition!
It was a good day though, the atmosphere was great and we met Dermot O'Leary! He was great, he said hi to us and rubbed Katherine on the back and said 'Hi how are you'!! Got some really good pics of him, he's a really friendly lovely guy.
Sadly Katherine didn't get through but she wasn't too worried this year. Just after her audition a girl was having her audition and she was absolutely amazing, her voice turned heads, she had a really powerful voice and sang beautifully but to our amazement she didn't get through either! That made Katherine feel a lot better.
It seemed that the early part of the day they were putting lots of people through but it got less and less as the day went on.
I think the secret is getting there as early as possible. Some people had been there since 6am!
We were out of home for around 11 hours and we were shattered when we arrived home.
Sarah x
Saturday 17 May 2008
Getting better....
The last couple of days have been much better. Andy seems to be feeling more himself. He's sleeping better although he's still anxious in the mornings.
The counsellor phoned and he's seeing her on Monday at 6.30pm, I'm so glad that he's agreed to go, I really think it will help.
I've not felt great the last couple of days and today I phoned in sick at work as I had one of the headaches that I get in my teeth and jaw, I think it's stress related but it's quite bad and today I couldn't shift it. It eventually went after a paracetamol, and extra strength co-codamol and two ibuprofen.
It was the open day at Church today. It went really well and we seemed to have lots of people visiting. Katherine and Matthew played with youth band and that went really well. Also Johnny from work was there with his jazz band and they were brilliant!
We're having an early night tonight as Katherine has an xfactor audition tomorrow and we need to be there early. Mark is staying over as he wants to come with us.
Andy has gone fishing and won't be back until the morning, it's the first time he's been in a while so I'm hoping that's a good sign.
Sarah x
The counsellor phoned and he's seeing her on Monday at 6.30pm, I'm so glad that he's agreed to go, I really think it will help.
I've not felt great the last couple of days and today I phoned in sick at work as I had one of the headaches that I get in my teeth and jaw, I think it's stress related but it's quite bad and today I couldn't shift it. It eventually went after a paracetamol, and extra strength co-codamol and two ibuprofen.
It was the open day at Church today. It went really well and we seemed to have lots of people visiting. Katherine and Matthew played with youth band and that went really well. Also Johnny from work was there with his jazz band and they were brilliant!
We're having an early night tonight as Katherine has an xfactor audition tomorrow and we need to be there early. Mark is staying over as he wants to come with us.
Andy has gone fishing and won't be back until the morning, it's the first time he's been in a while so I'm hoping that's a good sign.
Sarah x
Wednesday 14 May 2008
Having a really hard time....
Things are really hard at home. Andy isn't well at all. Each day seems to bring a new battle and as soon as we overcome that something else crops up. It's so hard and I'm exhausted but I'm determined to fight on and help him through this.
Today was about the worst, he didn't come home from work and didn't answer any of my texts. I found him at his Mum's painting - she's away on holiday so I guessed he'd be there. He even looks poorly, really tired and not himself at all. I can't tell you what he told me he'd been planning today, it's just so awful.
He's agreed to get some counselling so I contacted my friend and she's organising that for me. I'm also changing him over to my GP as I think he'll get better care there. I think the way he's feeling is a side effect of the tablets he's taking, I also think the dose may be too low.
Please spare us a thought and a prayer. It's affecting the whole family. I love him so much and he's trying so hard. He's so affectionate and keeps telling me how much he loves me and how beautiful I am which is something he's never done.
Most of the time family life is better than ever and he knows he's not well but just can't seem to control his thoughts and feelings.
Sarah x
Today was about the worst, he didn't come home from work and didn't answer any of my texts. I found him at his Mum's painting - she's away on holiday so I guessed he'd be there. He even looks poorly, really tired and not himself at all. I can't tell you what he told me he'd been planning today, it's just so awful.
He's agreed to get some counselling so I contacted my friend and she's organising that for me. I'm also changing him over to my GP as I think he'll get better care there. I think the way he's feeling is a side effect of the tablets he's taking, I also think the dose may be too low.
Please spare us a thought and a prayer. It's affecting the whole family. I love him so much and he's trying so hard. He's so affectionate and keeps telling me how much he loves me and how beautiful I am which is something he's never done.
Most of the time family life is better than ever and he knows he's not well but just can't seem to control his thoughts and feelings.
Sarah x
Monday 12 May 2008
Lovely weekend
We had a really nice weekend, mainly due to the weather. Andy was a bit up and down Friday and Saturday but much better yesterday.
On Friday night I took him up to the Marina for a meal, just the two of us. We had a really good talk while we were waiting for our food and Andy really needed to talk as he felt really stressed. He said he felt much better for talking and I said it's always better to talk things through than bottle it all up.
On Saturday I took Andy and the kids over to Bosworth water Park and Steve and Mark went over to join them on their peds. I packed them up a picnic but I had to come back to go to work! I went straight back after work and we stayed until quite late. They all had a lovely time and Mark and Steve got sunburn because they didn't put any cream on!
Yesterday we went to Church and then I took Isobel to Lilly's party. We had a really lovely time. In the afternoon the kids went to perform at a confirmation at a local church. It was a bit hectic and somehow Katherine ended up getting left behind! As she was the main singer that wasn't good so our Vicar, John came back and collected her - he thought it was all very funny.
We had a fairly relaxing evening and something that I was selling for Andy on ebay made a good price so he was pleased.
This morning we've been to swimming lessons and into town. I'm just going to drop Isobel off at my parents and I'm doing a 4 hour shift at work.
Sarah x
On Friday night I took him up to the Marina for a meal, just the two of us. We had a really good talk while we were waiting for our food and Andy really needed to talk as he felt really stressed. He said he felt much better for talking and I said it's always better to talk things through than bottle it all up.
On Saturday I took Andy and the kids over to Bosworth water Park and Steve and Mark went over to join them on their peds. I packed them up a picnic but I had to come back to go to work! I went straight back after work and we stayed until quite late. They all had a lovely time and Mark and Steve got sunburn because they didn't put any cream on!
Yesterday we went to Church and then I took Isobel to Lilly's party. We had a really lovely time. In the afternoon the kids went to perform at a confirmation at a local church. It was a bit hectic and somehow Katherine ended up getting left behind! As she was the main singer that wasn't good so our Vicar, John came back and collected her - he thought it was all very funny.
We had a fairly relaxing evening and something that I was selling for Andy on ebay made a good price so he was pleased.
This morning we've been to swimming lessons and into town. I'm just going to drop Isobel off at my parents and I'm doing a 4 hour shift at work.
Sarah x
Friday 9 May 2008
Not so good today
He had a mouth full of blood again this morning and he said he felt really really scared.
He's been really stressed again this evening. We went out for a 'date' this evening, just the two of us. We walked up to the local marina for a meal and had a lovely evening.
I think it's going to be a long time before he's back to normal but at least he's talking lots.
He's convinced that the tablets are making him feel worse too.
Sarah x
He's been really stressed again this evening. We went out for a 'date' this evening, just the two of us. We walked up to the local marina for a meal and had a lovely evening.
I think it's going to be a long time before he's back to normal but at least he's talking lots.
He's convinced that the tablets are making him feel worse too.
Sarah x
Thursday 8 May 2008
Been to the dentist
Everything is fine! The dentist had a really good look and he said he has a fissure, he said it can be caused by biting the tongue or eating something hot although Andy can't remember doing either.
He had a real good 'dig around' in the fissure (yuk) and said he hadn't managed to make it bleed so it shouldn't bleed again.He's given him some mouth wash and asked him to go back in a week and said he was right to go and see him.
Andy feels so much better now, he's a really good dentist and we all trust him so he's really put his mind at rest.
He put his arms around me before I went to work and told me that he was really going to look after me now and realised how much I meant to him. I said yeah give it 6 months till you are feeling better and everything will be back to how it was so he said I've not got to let him!
I hope this is the start of him feeling better now as he's been fantastic, even the kids have noticed how chatty and lovely he's been.
He brought them all into Morrisons for their tea tonight and when I went on my break I sat with them in the cafe.
Sarah x x
He had a real good 'dig around' in the fissure (yuk) and said he hadn't managed to make it bleed so it shouldn't bleed again.He's given him some mouth wash and asked him to go back in a week and said he was right to go and see him.
Andy feels so much better now, he's a really good dentist and we all trust him so he's really put his mind at rest.
He put his arms around me before I went to work and told me that he was really going to look after me now and realised how much I meant to him. I said yeah give it 6 months till you are feeling better and everything will be back to how it was so he said I've not got to let him!
I hope this is the start of him feeling better now as he's been fantastic, even the kids have noticed how chatty and lovely he's been.
He brought them all into Morrisons for their tea tonight and when I went on my break I sat with them in the cafe.
Sarah x x
Wednesday 7 May 2008
Andy not very well
We had a lovely evening yesterday. Andy was very affectionate, I told Mum I felt like a cat cos everytime he walked by me he stroked my hair or rubbed my face :oD
He felt loads better until we went to bed and he started to feel all anxious again and his tummy hurt. I told him that I thought that was natural and not to worry.
When he got up for work this morning his tongue was pouring with blood again for the third morning in a row and it really scared him. He looked awful and I know he went into a real panic, he asked me if he was going to die I have to say I'm not happy at all and really worried about this spot on his tongue. I don't think for a moment that he's bitten it because for a start it doesn't hurt at all and whenever I've bitten my tongue it's really sore and also I've not known my tongue to bleed days after I've supposed to have bitten it.
I rang the dentist and he can't see him until tomorrow afternoon which is a real pain.
I now have the job of trying not to panic and trying to keep him from panicing too.
Sarah x
He felt loads better until we went to bed and he started to feel all anxious again and his tummy hurt. I told him that I thought that was natural and not to worry.
When he got up for work this morning his tongue was pouring with blood again for the third morning in a row and it really scared him. He looked awful and I know he went into a real panic, he asked me if he was going to die I have to say I'm not happy at all and really worried about this spot on his tongue. I don't think for a moment that he's bitten it because for a start it doesn't hurt at all and whenever I've bitten my tongue it's really sore and also I've not known my tongue to bleed days after I've supposed to have bitten it.
I rang the dentist and he can't see him until tomorrow afternoon which is a real pain.
I now have the job of trying not to panic and trying to keep him from panicing too.
Sarah x
Monday 5 May 2008
Had a great day
Me and Andy went off to Morrisons this morning and Isobel sat in the trolley which was really nice. We left Katherine having her highlighted and Matt had his hair but by my friend Michelle from work.
We got a trolley full of goodies and came home and the weather was already warming up and it was really sunny.
We completely forgot that we'd never yet used the new BBQ and it had to be assembled so Andy was busy doing that while I sorted the food.
My sister Jane and her partner Lyn came over from Nottingham and my parents came too. We had a really lovely day. The food was great and the company was even better.
Later on Katherine's friend Mark called round and him and Matthew had a bit of a jam on the guitars in the garden. Andy had a go too as Matthew taught him something while we were out last night!
Amazing performance
Last night Katherine sang at the Miss Hinckley finals at a local hotel. It was a really big event and among the judges was tv's own Bill Maynard and Miss England!
She was very nervous. She had to sing Bryan Adam's 'Everything I do' and during the instrumental her friend Jade danced in front of her.
She was totally awesome! That had to be one of her best ever performances. She hit every note bang on and she sang with passion and real power. I was so impressed and I've seen her sing so many times before.
I was very proud as one of the organisers sat next to me and she said that she'd heard her sing and she was brilliant but she'd heard that she was good beforehand!
Hopefully we'll get a copy of the official dvd that was made and I'll be able to upload the clip.
Sarah x
We got a trolley full of goodies and came home and the weather was already warming up and it was really sunny.
We completely forgot that we'd never yet used the new BBQ and it had to be assembled so Andy was busy doing that while I sorted the food.
My sister Jane and her partner Lyn came over from Nottingham and my parents came too. We had a really lovely day. The food was great and the company was even better.
Later on Katherine's friend Mark called round and him and Matthew had a bit of a jam on the guitars in the garden. Andy had a go too as Matthew taught him something while we were out last night!
Amazing performance
Last night Katherine sang at the Miss Hinckley finals at a local hotel. It was a really big event and among the judges was tv's own Bill Maynard and Miss England!
She was very nervous. She had to sing Bryan Adam's 'Everything I do' and during the instrumental her friend Jade danced in front of her.
She was totally awesome! That had to be one of her best ever performances. She hit every note bang on and she sang with passion and real power. I was so impressed and I've seen her sing so many times before.
I was very proud as one of the organisers sat next to me and she said that she'd heard her sing and she was brilliant but she'd heard that she was good beforehand!
Hopefully we'll get a copy of the official dvd that was made and I'll be able to upload the clip.
Sarah x
Sunday 4 May 2008
Thursday 1 May 2008
Rough couple of days
Well I've had a really rough couple of days. I can't really go into detail in a blog on the net as it's a bit personal.
I took the day off work today, phoned in sick but was honest about why. I didn't want to phone in sick but it needed to be done and I've done enough overtime this week to cover my contract so it should be ok.
I've been so low and spent time last night crying. Life can be so hard at times.
I went into town today and met my Mum for lunch and managed to scrape the front of my car along a wall :o(
I lost concentration I think due to stress and lack of sleep.
It's not helped that I keep having to go to the kids schools to take things they've forgotten, they really need to organise themselves better!
The kids are out at band practise now and I have the house to myself as Isobel is asleep. It's very peaceful.
I've had a good tidy round and am just going to read the paper and then have a bath.
There is a lovely article in the Hinckley Times again about the tea party. I'll post it if I get chance to scan it in. The only downside was that it didn't mention my Mum and she worked so hard on the day :o(
Sarah x
I took the day off work today, phoned in sick but was honest about why. I didn't want to phone in sick but it needed to be done and I've done enough overtime this week to cover my contract so it should be ok.
I've been so low and spent time last night crying. Life can be so hard at times.
I went into town today and met my Mum for lunch and managed to scrape the front of my car along a wall :o(
I lost concentration I think due to stress and lack of sleep.
It's not helped that I keep having to go to the kids schools to take things they've forgotten, they really need to organise themselves better!
The kids are out at band practise now and I have the house to myself as Isobel is asleep. It's very peaceful.
I've had a good tidy round and am just going to read the paper and then have a bath.
There is a lovely article in the Hinckley Times again about the tea party. I'll post it if I get chance to scan it in. The only downside was that it didn't mention my Mum and she worked so hard on the day :o(
Sarah x
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